5K lighter!!!

Well today I paid the invoice for ICSI! No matter how quick the women taking my card details said £3965, I still let out a little squeek! I did ask if she could drop a 0 off the end, but she wasn't having any of it :-) Well as I'm told all the time, if you don't ask you don't get! hahaha!

I also called the drug company as I was worried about them delivering, I have a funny week at work next week and the only available day I could be at home was Tuesday, and just by chance thats the day they are going to deliver. So another 1K down and my drugs are on the way....

It all seems so very real now we have parted with all that money. Im not stressing as much, worrying about it not working and all that money gone. My OH says its like walking into a casino and putting 5k on red, and that is pretty much where we are, with slightly lesser odds......

I have now let my boss know that treatment is due to start on the 14th and apoligised in advance for irational outbursts and moods swings, his words were "swing away" and "if you need to work at home, then thats fine". I couldn't ask for more to be honest.

I have to mention my amazing family and friends. They have been so supportive throughout every test prod and poke, they have listened to my every worry, story and irrational thought. They have learnt when I just don't want to talk about it, and know when to just leave me alone. My only one regret is the amount of people that know that we are going through ICSI. I end up telling the same story over and over, and i now realise that if its bad news I have to tell them all!

It also occured to me that the date I actually start the treatment is Mothering Sunday! Surely that has to be a good sign. I'm not the type of person that looks for signs, but for once im clinging on to the 14th being a good omen.....<3